2.06.08 A Change In Me

Change...I need more of it. I've grown so much in just this year but to progress to the next level I must seek out more. How did I come to this conclusion? Recently it got to the point where I got comfortable. I was doing what God directed me to do, I was showing humility, studying the word and whatever else I thought would be pleasing in his sight. But the more I sought him the harder I was being hit by the enemy. I'm just starting to receive some of the things that he's promised me and the enemy is trying to convince me that I'm making the wrong decision. But how is it so easy to let the devil into my head when I'm so dedicated to my decisions?

Because the spirit of doubt use to be tenant in this house. My inquisitive nature led me to eventually second guess everything in front and behind me. Once something has claimed tenancy, its hard to get them out. I'll be honest I've grown up to see roaches, ants, and even a mouse or two. Now we could lay traps, powders, and sprays to rid them and yes for a while they leave. But they staked tenancy in our home so soon enough the following summers and winters they're back and I swear they multiplied! The point i'm trying to make is that change has to stay constant. You can't make one change and expect that to be enough. The enemy is sly and studies your change and will just find a new way to get back in what it claims as its own.

-Me

2.06.08 Sin

The problem with sin is this, the more different sins that u allow into your life the greater the chance of a relapse into that lifestyle. See sin knows what neighborhood yoou live in but it doesn't know the house. By inviting sin "over" you might as well have handed over your alarm codes and key! Its like a house guest that never leaves or the neighbor that likes to pop up and see what your doing. You can chop down the tree but unless you pull up the roots....

2.06.08 Under The Cover

Under the cover of ADD the enemy kept my mine cluttered and full of confusion. He led me to believe that this noise was normal. Literally I could go to bed in thought and wake up just the same. He knew that in my silence I would hear the voice of the lord calling me...and that I would answer.

-Me